SOLD.

The regret that came with taking a job that I wasn’t passionate about caught up with me. I thought that “making it” meant button ups and business cards. I found out, however, that the salary could not sustain the artist that lives in me.

I feel like I sold my soul for a seat at a table with people who don’t value my opinions or passions anyway.

I auctioned off my creative mind for a 9-5 because I thought success meant having an office.

They gave me a salary in exchange for the time that I’ve wasted trying to convince myself that I could be happy doing this forever.

They dangled business cards before my eyes so that I would feed into the lie that people knowing my name could be more fulfilling than knowing myself.

They gave me my personal extension hoping that I wouldn’t take any wake up calls. Took down my direct deposit information to send me the same amount every month but what I desperately needed was a reality check.

I sat in HR discussing benefits while burying the parts of me that make me feel alive. I had a funeral on the same day that I set up retirement.

You look so good in your business attire but you have no business being here when there is a fire inside of you.

Creative minds, beware of what it will really cost you to get paid at a job that you prayed for because you were too afraid that your real ambitions would fail.

Beware of the discomfort you will feel in the shoes that were easy to put on but made for someone else’s feet. You will have to shrink yourself to fill them.

The worst parts of your day will be when they point out your gifts but won’t value them. You will resent them for the box that you put yourself in.

Your purpose will shine through in the mediocrities of the job and their compliments will cut like insults because it insinuates your true potential.

You’ll take the title attached to the name attached to the face that you won’t be able to pick out in a line up.

Line up! Next to all of the lost, creative souls who did a disservice to themselves. Is it a homicide or a suicide to kill your dreams with doubt?

You’re successful but a monster for watching yourself suffer.. for a seat at a table with people who don’t know you or value you because you placed more value on your desired pay than your inner most desires.

“Congratulations! We are excited to offer you a position with our company” accompanied with the regret you will feel when you realize that you can still hit rock bottom.. at the top.

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Black Musicians Matter: Briennia Jenkins

unnamed (3)Briennia De’andra Jenkins is a 21-year-old singer, rapper, songwriter and poet. Majoring in accounting, she is in her final year at Coastal Carolina University. During her time at Coastal, Briennia has been an active participant in many organizations including Alpha Kappa Psi inc. and the National Association for the Advancement of Colored People (NAACP.)

She is is best known for her soulful voice and passion about race relations and equal rights. She adamantly supports the Black Lives Matter movement and the empowerment of African-American men and women. Upon graduating, she plans to pursue music as a career.

I got a chance to catch up with Briennia! Check out what she had to say:

Who or what inspires you?

“I am most inspired by Lauryn Hill to make music. She inspires me to be simple and complex. Simple in materialistic things; complex in my way of thinking. unnamed (1)My drive to make a career out of music comes solely from my deceased mother, Ms. Gwendolyn D Jenkins. Music kept her going throughout her battle with Leukemia. She made me appreciate my gift more than ever.”

When did you start making music?

“I began creating my own music about two years ago. It started out with poetry and then it blossomed into rapping and singing.”

What new projects are you working on?

“I am currently putting together an EP that will feature other up and coming artists and poets. This will be my very first one so I am excited about debuting my work to the world.”

What goal are you ultimately trying to accomplish with your work?

“My goal is simply to move people. Music means nothing if nobody can feel it. Also as a lesbian and African-American artist, I hope to motivate others like me to chase their dreams no matter what people will think.”

Any advice for other artists?

“Stay original!”


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